Void

Void ——- You created

Mystries and all….

Lost ……………….

And to be never found…..

Like a wonderful pearl…..

Deep !! so much Deep….

Like in the ocean Blue…

The void has created hole….

For you it is easy…..

For me….I suffer it alone…

Hard….

Saltless !!!

Salt less food….hard to taste…sometimes life becomes as sweet as Rasbhari….and at the mean time…it turns out to be Saltless food…by the way…Rasbhari is completely saltless….we don’t taste….salt in it….

Complications….desires….and everything …

What if people stop to desire…? It’s what leads to discovery….Desire led man to moon…( I really don’t know if the word desire suits here ?)

Desire led to discovery…the saltless food….

Desire led to face the moonless’s night…..

But Stars do shine…even at the moonless night…..What if life were a video game….

Blue Mimosa Hangover

Again read the book….and it is hanging me like nothing else had ever had…just a hanged head…and this blog..

Feels like piercing whole body with….needles….this is the line…where I always breakdown and cry…

Sometimes situation comes in life…like the main character of the novel has faced…he abandoned so many girls…and a girl abandoned him….

The male “characters” ego, power…everything just got destroyed….but the “female”…died…but didn’t surrender….

Love…he called it love….yes it was…i felt in every lines of Parijat….For loving so truly I have sympathy over..the character…I wish not to loose true lover like him…if I will have anyone…

Where the luck favors…love does not…some people like me…do not have luck..and that is why…there is no love…everything ….but not love…

Like the full moon…in the sky….I see it and gain pleasure…I get satisfied…that..once in a month…I can see the moon in the full shape…and get satisfied….

Some people like me…Some people like the main character of the novel….do not get what they want…they do not deserve it…and they are troubling self…running away from themselves…escaping..and escaping…

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Mythical Bytes

Why I regenerate heart….everyday…

Like Prometheus’s liver….

To have it eaten….by a eagle….

Why do I roll up the boulder ?

Like Sisyphus does….

To have it fall again from the top…

“Myth or Reality”

Or is it Mythical Reality… ?

Cold

Don’t know why I am feeling so cold…so lone..as I had felt last September….I don’t want to be numb as always…quite and suffering with the pain…No, I don’t want to give pain to others because they don’t deserve it…the most beautiful people in the world..they can’t tolerate it…

Some days can be boring like this…Sweety must be chatting with her friends…as always..or facebooking…but I am here typing don’t know why I opt for this…writing…..Seems like …I am so habituated to my colleagues…to chat and laugh unnecessarily…backbite about Sweety, and a lot of girly gossips….but what if Sweety bans..it here at office.

I prefer imagination to reality. Coleridge has well said “Reality is dark dream”….Yes.. it is a dark dream…I don’t want to dream a dark dream…really it hurts to know..it hurts to realize which I don’t want to..

Vows !!!!

I left you miles and miles away……

With vows to meet again…..

I try to behold….your image….

In the clouds…I ‘d flown away…

In the waves….I’d sailed …….

Feels like you are here….

In the air…clouds…and waves…

Its you everytime…

I try to avoid you…get away from you but I you are so attached that you cannot be left away so easily…Things remind me of you….so much….I got an old newspaper…with something rolled in it…and guess what there was your name….Phew !!…I cannot tolerate…

You are like a boil…..painful…..Very much indeed…which needs  a lot of hardship to throw…all the white blood cells in my body could not fight with the bacteria…What about antibiotic tablets..but those tablets failed , as I failed….I could not drain you…because it was too painful…nor could I do avoid the pain….

How long I could stand like this…Its damn painful…God…I needed treatment…

Untitled ….

Lights are gone

Life seems

“so dark “

Dark World !!

I enter

Dark Dream !!

I dream

Scared !!

Decision

Off late…I am posting a story….just I remembered that I used to create stories…that seem so real….LOL

…………………………( depicting a mind after a decision )

I don’t possess any value in your life now. I know that because it is me who abandon you for no reason at all. But it was a decision ,a decision for life time.

I remember the first day I saw you, I remember everything…you were crush that time. I remember your talk…your moody attitude….your jealous smile….everything I remember. The first talk about your Pulsar 200 ( which was in fashion then ). I remember everything dear.

I know you do not remember anything, I wonder do you remember my full name too?….

Above the clouds !!

Just want escape…with this hectic..some how hectic..or pretending hectic schedule of life..want to go above the clouds…

Escape..!! is my favorite word now..because I want to escape. I know exactly that  circular movement .. circle doesn’t have any ends, does it.

Moving since morning and till evening…

Who told Sysypus is not alive..He is alive. He is not mythical. Syspus is within us. We have so much preserved his presence that I sometime feel that I am a Sysypus. A circular movement, No any connection with any ends..on my own way..on my own path..walking like i know nothing. I have learnt to ignore things..I have learnt to boycott things.