And I know you will understand everything without me saying a single word, this is where we keep our friendship, our emotions so safe. You will understand the depth in each word when you will read in this little letter but… I have been writing you a lot~ a lot when knowing that I will never ever get a reply! I know-I know I am not throwing away my tantrums~ I wish I could!
The moment I thought all the things fell into places ~ the very moment ground shook it all ~ keeping me in a moment of awestruck, with a confidence to walk down at the zero level. But how long one could be in the same place where you day by day you lose your confidence. One day! One day! You were ought to say NO! scream out loud and to give yourself a little push to fly~ else your wings will be forever locked.
But! The flight will be so unknown! People will call you crazy! But you have guts to accept this craziness na? I know you will not judge anything, knowing that I was not right for the world but I was right for myself. For myself, it was a decision. Totally hard to get away from the emotion that doubles your happiness. Totally hard and difficult to give up little dreams that you planned. Are dreams planned? Yeah of course they can be, till you lose it piece by piece like the puzzle piece.
When you slip time and again in the same thing ~ you decide to give up but you don’t ~ you give it a last last and last try~ but still you fail when you only had fears that you would fail but in reality you failed. And now, you are unable to decide ~ the depth of the unfathomable pain! How can pain feel so painful? How can happiness feel so light? Can’t you merge both happiness and sadness and then be in the threshold of happiness and sadness both? You will never have to be so happy that you will fear of enormous sadness coming near to you!
Believe me~ when love seeps into your soul ~ you forget everything ~ it gives you happiness but why love posses that wings that fully grows with the intense and passionate love and then it takes a flight to never come back again. Do you always feel happy nestling love?
Now I feel like growing wings~I want to take a flight too!