Cold

Don’t know why I am feeling so cold…so lone..as I had felt last September….I don’t want to be numb as always…quite and suffering with the pain…No, I don’t want to give pain to others because they don’t deserve it…the most beautiful people in the world..they can’t tolerate it…
Some days can be boring like this…Sweety must [...]

Guilt feeling heart

Guilt I am feeling,
For daring the sin to be done..
A pang in my heart..
A feeling so obscure..
A pounding heart..and a fleshy..thing needed to survive
An obscure reality under the veil…
A feeling to scare..and a guilt to remain…
A life-time wounds would be painful…
But I am not identical to them…no I am not…++
Heart’s feeling guilt..its feeling a pang…
Where [...]

Adjacent ends

Born in the world…crying..out of pain…
Wishing everything of this world to gain…
Growing day by day..wishing the best..
“I want find the best out of rest” ++
This heriditary bloods flow in the veins…
Why is it red ?? 
Cutting shall why only give the pain ???..
We cried out of pain…the day we took birth…
Supressing the pain..we wanted to live…
While [...]

Entity ????

I found myself strucked  in this question…
Is there any entity of me and my woes ?
I found myself gloomy and sad thinking this….
Does my gloomyness has any entity…???…
No, there is no anything of mine…
I had wanted to live and live a life…
Live a life of a choice….
Batteling within self for an unnatural quest…
Not for a holy grail..but [...]

Waiting ……

Here I am..waiting for passage of time…
Here I am …wishing the best..in the worst phase of time…
Here I am aggravated….accepting the creul reality…
Here I am…waiting for the passage of the time…
I wish I were not here…I wish I was not even born….
I feel I get easily frustrated….
Yes I do when the situation like this is [...]

Thinking…to take a break

Yes I am talking about break…but what kind of break..yes a break..a holiday..a sleepy day..when I would slepp the whole day..once I remember how I slept for the whole day..from 11 AM in the morning till 6:00 PM and what I did was ate supper and then again slept….How much I had felt relieved that [...]

White clads

I saw her today in the white clads….
She hates to wear and I hate it too…
But this religion forbids…her and she forbids herself…
No..ear rings that used to make her beautiful….
No the blue and pink saris….just everything white….
Yes….her man has died…leaving her behind….
Her swollen face…and sullen eyes…
And  never ending session of tears…
I met her because I [...]

Incessant!!!!

This heart is feeling a pang….
This incessant overflowing feelings…
This constant…pain and this poor bleeding heart…
Persistent pain…persistent pang….
This feeling…so strong…and this restless soul…
Ceaseless….heart beats…making alive…”the body”…
Same time..making the soul alive….to save the feelings…
This incessant overflowing feelings…these….feelings
The passion…I had felt..within…me…DW
The tranquilising…emotions…the painful…pang…in heart
This intense passion..this insistent vigour….to wait..
Wait..till…these feelings…shall fade…..
Could incessant feelings…fade away….
These incessant….overflowing…feelings…
And these tranquilising…emotions…
My invocation…..feel these…incessant [...]

A lone Heart -II

A lone heart and the feelings obscure
The still air outside …no sun and no rain…
A lone heart on the festive mood….
A room to be cleaned…a cupboard to be maintained
A lone heart doesn’t want to do anything….
The feelings stopped…so obscure
The feelings under the veil of ignorance….
So many things to be done…so many promises to be kept
But [...]

Reminiscence

What is left with me in this heart ??
A sin and all unnecessary feelings of hurt.
Forgotten past has its effect last ever
The existence of the things happened
The feeling and emotions that are lost
The reminiscence left that can never be removed
The pain of remorse extinguishes every hope
I feel like plunging in a silent river
i feel like [...]