Cold

Don’t know why I am feeling so cold…so lone..as I had felt last September….I don’t want to be numb as always…quite and suffering with the pain…No, I don’t want to give pain to others because they don’t deserve it…the most beautiful people in the world..they can’t tolerate it…
Some days can be boring like this…Sweety must [...]

Oh Saturday

Waiting since the sunday comes, so many things undone to be done. What can one do in 24 hours. Sometimes I feel these 24 hours is not enough for me. But what the hell I am doing other than running. Running from home to college ( always late..If I will be on time then it [...]

Preserved..

Dying each moment I breathe..
Dying with each beat this thing beats..
Suffering suffering..immensely..suffering..
Yet living..yet alive..yet standing..
Yet dying..with each beat and each breathe..
Flooded eyes..pounding thing..blur image I Dream..
Whatever I feel..whatever I dream…
Engraved yes the name is in this heart..
 I Dream Whatever!!!
Waiting till this moment..and I shall till I am alive..
A quest and a thirst..A need of the [...]

Empty..

Breathing ….now and then,
Incessantly…
Filing this empty vessel..with air..
Trying to live..here ..making this empty thing alive..
Each moment I thrive..I thrive..
Making this empty thing alive..
A soul and a fleshy..empty thing..
A hollowness..very very deep..
Insane..it is..breathing in and out..
I keep my silence…and I don’t shout..
Emptiness I preserve..
Emptiness I preserve..
Breathing incessantly..in and out..

Restless

Restless I am feeling..
Restless this thing is thumping…
Wanting to stop this beating thing..
Wanting to hide the scar paining..
Restless I am feeling…
Restless this thing is thumping..
The injured thing..is hard to handle…
Restlessly it thumps…making me insane..
Insane feeling…here I am….
Unable to feel yes the feeling..
This vacant eyes …searching instantly…
This overflowing feelings…
This thing thumping…

Mothic Future

I am looking at those fluttering moths
Hovering around the light so bright
In the midst of this dark night
Searching for the warmth they are …
Wanting the warmth..
Warmth that is all in vain..
I imagine a “mothic Future”..so much uncertain
They hover around to make themself warm
Unaware they are all in charm,
Getting the fake warmth
More moths came fluttering…
Hovering as [...]

Alter…

Distinctly different this heart’s beating
Trying to be away fron the way I am feeling
What have I been to ??
Feelings so obscure to see and feel..
The way I have been..and the way I am being
Can you replace it ++ ?
Yes the feeling and this disitinctly beating heart..
Revealing was a sin..like the forbidden fruit’s frist sight
This beating thing..
Pounding incessantly [...]

Virtually….Blind

Virtually…Blind…
I am out of my mind
The vacant hollow mind…
The obscure feelings…in the bleeding heart..
The obscure reasons to feel the pang…
Virtually blind I was and virtually blind I am..
Running…running..away from the reality….
Real real reality…++
The space of life..so dry…
The feelings..so cold making me cry….
Insanely crying inside…
But the dry eye outside….
Virtually blind…I was..believed your enlightening words…++
Lacking in sense I [...]

Adjacent ends

Born in the world…crying..out of pain…
Wishing everything of this world to gain…
Growing day by day..wishing the best..
“I want find the best out of rest” ++
This heriditary bloods flow in the veins…
Why is it red ?? 
Cutting shall why only give the pain ???..
We cried out of pain…the day we took birth…
Supressing the pain..we wanted to live…
While [...]

Waiting ……

Here I am..waiting for passage of time…
Here I am …wishing the best..in the worst phase of time…
Here I am aggravated….accepting the creul reality…
Here I am…waiting for the passage of the time…
I wish I were not here…I wish I was not even born….
I feel I get easily frustrated….
Yes I do when the situation like this is [...]